As I was in my usual state, I saw little Baby Jesus with a fistful of light in His hand, and rays flowing out through His fingers. I remained enchanted, and He told me: “My daughter, perfection is light, and one who says he wants to reach it acts just like one who would want to clasp a body of light in his hand: as he tries to clasp it, the light itself flows out through his fingers; except, his hand remains immersed in that light. Now, the Light is God, and God alone is perfect, and the soul who wants to be perfect does nothing but seize shadows — the little drops of God; and sometimes she does nothing but live in the Light alone, that is, in the Truth. And just as the Light penetrates deeper and occupies more space the greater the void it finds, and the deeper the place is — in the same way, the more the soul is empty and humble, the more the Divine Light fills her and communicates Its graces and perfections to her.”
Seventh Excess of Love -- Christmas Novena, December 22
SEVENTH EXCESS OF LOVE
The interior voice continued: “My daughter, do not leave Me alone in so much loneliness and in so much darkness. Do not leave the womb of My Mama, so you may see the seventh Excess of My Love. Listen to Me: in the womb of My Celestial Father I was fully happy; there was no good which I did not possess; joy, happiness – everything was at My disposal. The angels adored Me reverently, hanging upon My every wish. Ah, Excess of My Love! I could say that it made Me change My destiny; it restrained Me within this gloomy prison; it stripped Me of all My joys, happinesses and goods, to clothe Me with all the unhappinesses of creatures – and all this in order to make an exchange, to give them My destiny, My joys and My eternal happiness. But this would have been nothing had I not found in them highest ingratitude and obstinate perfidy. Oh, how My Eternal Love was surprised in the face of so much ingratitude, and how it cried over the stubbornness and perfidy of man. Ingratitude was the sharpest thorn that pierced My Heart, from My Conception up to the last moment of My Life. Look at My little Heart – it is wounded, and pours out blood. What pain! What torture I feel! My daughter, do not be ungrateful to Me. Ingratitude is the hardest pain for your Jesus – it is to close the door in My face, leaving Me numb with cold. But My Love did not stop at so much ingratitude; it took the attitude of supplicating, imploring, moaning and begging love. This is the eighth Excess of My Love.”
From the Calendar--December 21, 1930 Volume 28
My flight in the Divine Volition continues; it seems to me that I call It, because life would be missing in me without It. The life of good, the life of love, the life of the light, the life of peace, would be missing in me; and my human will, seeing itself alone, would assault me and would give life to my passions in me. This is why I fear so much that even for just one instant it may remain without the Fiat operating in me, because, It being present, my will remains crouched down and does not dare to move before a Will so holy and so powerful. Therefore I call It, and It gives me Its hand to take me into Its acts, that I may follow It and keep It company. And since It created everything for love of creatures, when It feels her close and identified, It takes such delight, that It feels as though repaid for the many things It issued from Its creative hands.
So, while I was following the acts of the Divine Will done in Creation, my sweet Jesus, making Himself seen and looking at me, told me: “My daughter, how sweet it is for Me to look at a soul who lets herself be worked by My Divine Will. A triumph takes place from one side to the other: My Will invests the intelligence of the creature, and she lets herself be invested. In sum, they form an accord on both sides; and then My Will forms Its Triumph over each thought of the creature, and she acquires and makes a triumph of the many Divine Thoughts within her mind. So, My Divine Will triumphs by giving and taking possession of it; the soul triumphs by wanting it and receiving it. So, if she looks, if she speaks, if she palpitates, if she operates and walks, those are all Triumphs of My Will over the creature; and she triumphs and takes possession of many Divine Acts. Amid these exchanges of triumphs and possessions, such joy and happiness is formed on both sides, that you cannot comprehend them all. In fact, you must know that when good, the triumph, the possession, is done between two—then does it bring joy and happiness. Isolated good has made no one happy; as it sees itself alone, it loses all the beauty of happiness. Therefore My Divine Will keeps searching for Its creature in order to form Its Triumphs, to be able to form, together with her, Its Joys, Its Happinesses, on the face of the earth.”
Sixth Excess of Love -- Christmas Novena, December 21
SIXTH EXCESS OF LOVE
“My daughter, come, pray My dear Mama to set aside a little space for you within her maternal womb, that you yourself may see the painful state in which I find Myself.” So, in my thoughts, it seemed that our Queen Mama made me a little room to make Jesus content, and placed me in it. But the darkness was such that I could not see Him; I could only hear His breathing, while He continued to say in my interior: “My daughter, look at another Excess of My Love. I am the Eternal Light; the sun is a shadow of My Light. But do you see where My Love led Me – in what a dark prison I am? There is not a glimmer of light; it is always night for Me – but a night without stars, without rest. I am always awake...what pain! The narrowness of this prison – without being able to make the slightest movement; the thick darkness...; even My breathing, as I breathe through the breathing of My Mama – oh, how labored it is! To this, add the darkness of the sins of creatures. Each sin was a night for Me, and combined together they formed an abyss of darkness, with no boundaries. What pain! Oh, Excess of My Love – making Me pass from an immensity of light and space into an abyss of thick darkness, so narrow as to lose the freedom to breathe; and all this, for love of creatures.”
As He was saying this, He moaned – moans almost suffocated because of the lack of space; and He cried. I was consumed with crying. I thanked Him, I compassionated Him; I wanted to make Him a little light with my love, as He told me to. But who can say all? Then, the same interior voice added: “Enough for now; move on to the seventh Excess of My Love.”
From the Calendar -- December 20, 1925 Volume 18
I was thinking of the tears that Baby Jesus shed at His birth, and I said to myself: “How bitter these tears must have been for Him; how they must have now frozen, now burned that tender face. In fact, from what I know, tears have two effects depending on the reason for which they are shed: if their cause comes from love, they burn and make one sob; if then they are produced by sorrow, they are ice-cold and make one shiver. For my royal little Baby there was intense and infinite love, and endless sorrow; so, His tears must have cost Him very much.” Now, while I was thinking about this, my sweet Jesus moved in my interior, and showed His face wet with tears – but so many, that one flowed after the other, to the point of wetting His chest and His hands. And, sighing, He said to me: “My daughter, My tears began from the very first instant of My conception in the womb of My Celestial Mama, up to My last breath on the Cross. The Will of My Celestial Father entrusted to Me also the task of tears, and I was to shed so many of them from My eyes, for as many as all creatures together would shed. Just as I conceived all of their souls within Me, so was I to shed all of their tears from My eyes.
“See, then, how much I had to cry. I had to shed from My eyes the tears which creatures shed out of passion, so that Mine might extinguish their passions. I had to shed the tears which are needed after sin, to give them the sorrow for having offended Me and the conviction of the evil they had done, preparing, with My tears, the resolution not to offend Me any more. I had to shed the tears in order to move souls to compassion, to make them comprehend the pains of My Passion; and I also shed abundant tears of love, in order to electrify souls to love Me, to draw their sympathy and their hearts, all for Me. It is enough to tell you that there is not one tear that arises on the human eye, which I did not shed from My eyes. No one knew of My many tears, of My much crying, hidden and secret. How many times, even as a tender Child, I flew from earth up to Heaven, and leaning My little head upon the knees of My Celestial Father, I cried and cried, and, sobbing, I said to Him: ‘My Father, You see, I am born in the world to tears and to sorrow, just like My brothers, who are born to tears, and die amidst crying. And I love these brothers so much, that I want to shed all of their tears from My eyes. Not even one do I want to let escape, so as to give to their tears, Tears of Love, of Sorrow, of Victory, of Sanctification and of Divinization.’ How many times My dear Mama, in looking at Me, was pierced in seeing Me all wet with crying; and because of the pain of seeing Me cry, She united Her tears to Mine, and we cried together. And sometimes I was forced to hide Myself to give vent to crying, so as not to always pierce Her maternal and innocent Heart. Other times, I waited for the moment when My Celestial Mama, out of necessity, had to occupy Herself with housework, to give vent to My tears, in order to complete the number of tears of all creatures.”
On hearing this, I said to Him: “My Love, Jesus, so, your eyes have shed also my tears, as well as those of our first father Adam. And I want You to pour them upon my soul, to give me the grace not only to do your Most Holy Will, but to possess It as my own thing and my own will.” At that moment, Jesus shook His head, and from His face tears flowed onto my poor soul; and He added: “Daughter of My Will, indeed I shed your tears, so that, as they would pass through My eyes, I might give you the great Gift of My Will. That which Adam could not receive with his tears, even though they too passed through My eyes, you can receive. In fact, before sinning, Adam possessed My Will, and with the possession of My Will he grew in the likeness of his Creator; and he grew so much as to form the enchantment of all Heaven, and all felt honored in serving him. After sin, he lost the possession of My Will, and even though he wept over his fault and he sinned no more, he was able to do My Will, but not to possess It, because the Divine Offended One was missing, who was to form the New Divine Graft between the creature and the Creator, in order to let him cross again the thresholds of the possessions of the Eternal Volition.
“This Graft was made by Me, Eternal Word, after four thousand years, when Adam had already passed on to the thresholds of Eternity. But in spite of this Divine Graft done by Me with tears and sighs and unheard-of pains, how many reduce themselves to the conditions of Adam after sin – merely doing My Will? Others, do not want to know It; others rebel against It. Only one who lives in My Will rises to the state of Adam innocent, before falling into sin. In fact, there is great distance between those who do My Will and those who possess It – the same distance which passes between Adam innocent and Adam after sin. And I, in coming upon earth, was to act as God; I was to complete the work of man in everything; I was to raise him to the first point of his origin, by giving him the possession of My Will. And even though many make use of My coming as remedy for their salvation, and therefore take My Will as medicine, as strength and as antidote in order not to go to hell, I will wait still, that souls may arise who take It as Life; and by making It known, they may take possession of It. In this way, I will complete the work of My coming upon earth, and the Divine Graft formed anew with the creature, will have fruit. Then will My tears turn into Celestial and Divine Smiles, for Me and for them.”
Fifth Excess of Love -- Christmas Novena, December 20
FIFTH EXCESS OF LOVE
And the interior voice continued: “My daughter, do not move away from Me, do not leave Me alone; My Love wants your company. This is another Excess of My Love, which does not want to be alone. But do you know whose company it wants? That of the creature. See, in the womb of My Mama, all of the creatures are together with Me – conceived together with Me. I am with them, all Love. I want to tell them how much I love them; I want to speak with them to tell them of My joys and sorrows – that I have come into their midst to make them happy and to console them; that I will remain in their midst as a little Brother, giving My goods, My Kingdom, to each one of them at the cost of My Life. I want to give them My kisses and My caresses. I want to amuse Myself with them, but – ah, how many sorrows they give Me! Some run away from Me, some play deaf and force Me into silence; some despise My goods and do not care about My Kingdom, returning My kisses and caresses with indifference and obliviousness of Me, so they convert My amusement into bitter crying. Oh! How lonely I am, though in the midst of many. Oh! How loneliness weighs upon Me. I have no one to whom to say a word, with whom to pour Myself out, not even in Love. I am always sad and taciturn, because if I speak, I am not listened to. Ah! My daughter, I beg you, I implore you, do not leave Me alone in so much loneliness; give Me the good of letting Me speak by listening to Me; lend your ear to My teachings. I am the Master of masters. How many things do I want to teach you! If you listen to Me, you will stop My crying and I will amuse Myself with you. Don’t you want to amuse yourself with Me?”
And as I abandoned myself in Him, giving Him my compassion in His loneliness, the interior voice continued: “Enough, enough; move on to consider the sixth Excess of My Love.”
From the Calendar--December 19, 1926 Volume 20
“In fact, in order to possess these goods that the Celestial Father put out in the Creation, the creature must make her way; she must elevate herself to union with that Divine Will, in order to work together with It, do the same acts, know them in order to do them, so as to be able to say: ‘What It does, I do.’ With this, she acquires the right of possession in all the acts of this Supreme Will; and when two wills form one single will, ‘Mine’ and ‘yours’ no longer exist; rather, by right, what is Mine is yours, and what is yours is Mine.
“And so, this is the reason why My Supreme Will calls you—awaits you in each created thing, to make known to you the riches that are in It, to make you repeat Its Divine acts together with It, and to give you the right of possession. You yourself become Its own property; you remain dissolved within Its immense riches and within Its very acts, and—oh! how the Divine Fiat enjoys making you the owner of Its immense riches. Its desire of constituting Its heiresses is so great, that It feels twice as happy when It sees one who knows Its possessions and makes Its Divine Act her own; so much so, that even though It saw that man, by withdrawing from Its Will, lost his way to reach the possession of Its dominions, It did not stop, but in the excess of Its Love and of Its long sorrow of seeing Its riches inactive for the good of creatures, as soon as the Eternal Word clothed Himself with human flesh, It constituted Itself life of each of His acts, so as to form more goods for them, powerful aids and effective remedies, more within the reach of decayed humanity, so as to realize the purpose of making them possess what was issued in Creation.
“There is nothing that comes from Us, that does not have this purpose—that the creature and everything return into Our Will. If it were not so, We would render Ourselves extraneous to Our own works. So, Creation, Redemption, My daughter, have the primary purpose that everything be Our Will, in Heaven and on earth; therefore, It flows everywhere, It is present in every place, to make everything Its own, and to give everything that belongs to It. Therefore, be attentive in following Our works; satisfy this desire, so insistent, of My Supreme Will, that wants those who possess Its goods.”
Fourth Excess of Love -- Christmas Novena, December 19
FOURTH EXCESS OF LOVE
“My daughter, from the Devouring Love, move on to look at My Operative Love. Each conceived soul brought Me the burden of her sins, of her weaknesses and passions, and My Love commanded Me to take the burden of each one of them. And it conceived not only the souls, but the pains of each one, as well as the satisfaction which each one of them was to give to My Celestial Father. So my Passion was conceived together with Me. Look well at Me in the womb of My Celestial Mama. Oh! How tortured was My little Humanity. Look well at My little head, surrounded by a crown of thorns, which, pressed tightly around my temples, made rivers of tears pour out from My eyes; nor was I able to make a move to dry them. O Please! Be moved to compassion for Me, dry My eyes from so much crying – you, who have free arms to be able to do it. These thorns are the crown of the so many evil thoughts which crowd the human minds. Oh! How they prick Me, more than thorns which sprout from the earth. But, look again – what a long crucifixion of nine months: I could not move a finger or a hand or a foot. I was always immobile; there was no room to be able to move even a tiny bit. What a long and hard crucifixion, with the addition that all evil works, assuming the form of nails, continuously pierced My hands and feet.”
So He continued to narrate to me pains upon pains – all the martyrdoms of His little Humanity, such that, if I wanted to tell them all, I would be too long.
I abandoned myself to crying, and I heard in my interior: “My daughter, I would like to hug you, but I am unable to do so – there is no room, I am immobile, I cannot do it. I would like to come to you, but I am unable to walk. For now, you hug Me and you come to Me; then, when I come out of the maternal womb, I will come to you.” But as I hugged Him and squeezed Him tightly to my heart with my imagination, an interior voice told me: “Enough for now, My daughter; move on to consider the fifth Excess of My Love.”
From the Calendar--December 18, 1938 Volume 36
I am always in the arms of the Divine Volition that makes me aware of everything, telling me: “I have done everything for you, but I want you to recognize the Excesses of My Love.”
While my mind was wandering around, my always Adorable Jesus, Who always wants to be the first Narrator of the Fiat and of Its Works, all Goodness told me: “My blessed daughter, to make known all that We have done for the creatures is already for Us the return for what We have done. But who can We let know? The one who Lives in Our Will because Our Will gives the capacity to understand us, the hearing to listen; It Transforms the human will so that it wills what We want. We never give if the creature doesn't want to receive and doesn't know what We want to give.
“See then, in what Painful conditions they leave us by not Living in Our Will. They turn us into the mute God. We cannot make known how much We Love them and how much they should Love Us; one can say that the communications between Heaven and earth remain severed. You must know that everything was Created as a Gift for the creatures. We made each created thing as the bearer of the Gift and of the Love that we placed inside that Gift. Do you know why? Because the creature had nothing to give to Us; and We Loved her with Great Love and wanted her to have something to give Us. If there's nothing to give, the correspondence ends, friendship is broken—love dies. So We provided the creature with many of Our Gifts, as if they were her own, so that she could have something to give Us. Therefore We make of the one who Lives in Our Will the Depository of the whole of Creation.
“O! What a Joy, what Happiness for Us, when We see her using Our Gifts to Love Us and say: ‘See how much I Love You. I give You the sun to Love You, and I Love You with the same Love with which You Loved me in the sun; I give You the homage and the adoration of its light, the variety of its effects to Love You—its continuous act of light, to spread myself everywhere and put my ‘I love You' in everything touched by its light.' Then, do you know what happens? We see the light of the sun, all its effects, and all the places where that light penetrates, all studded with the ‘I love You'—the adoration, the tributes of the creature. And there is even more: the sun carries in Triumph the Love of the Creator and of the creature, so we feel united within it, with one single Will and one single Heart; and if the creature feels she wants to love Us more, bravely she says: ‘See how much I love You—but it's not enough, I want to love You more; so I enter into Its Inaccessible, Immense, Eternal Light that never ends. From within that Light I want to Love You with Your Eternal Love.' You cannot comprehend Our Joy in seeing that she Loves Us not only in Our Gifts, but also in Ourselves. Conquered by her Love, we Redouble the Gift in return, and abandon ourselves to her to be Loved—not only in the way in which We Love Our Works, but in the way We Love within Ourselves. All this, to Love her.
“In this way she uses all created things to make for Us New Surprises of Love in return for Our Gifts—to maintain the correspondence and to continuously say that she Loves Us. And We, who do not know how to receive without giving, Redouble Our Gifts. But the Greatest Gift is when we see her carried in the arms of Our Will. We feel so much attracted that We can't remain without speaking about Our Supreme Being. Giving her an additional Knowledge of what We are is the Greatest Gift We can give—it surpasses the whole Creation. To know Our Works is a Gift, but making Our very Self known is giving Our own Life; it is admitting her to Our Secrets; it is the Creator trusting the creature. …”
Third Excess of Love -- Christmas Novena, December 18
THIRD EXCESS OF LOVE
As I moved on from the second to the third meditation, an interior voice told me: “My daughter, place your head upon the womb of My Mama, and look deep into it at My little Humanity. My love devoured Me; the fires, the oceans, the immense seas of love of My Divinity inundated Me, burned Me to ashes, and sent their flames so high as to rise and reach everywhere – all generations, from the first to the last man. My little Humanity was devoured in the midst of such flames; but do you know what My Eternal Love wants Me to devour? Ah! Souls! And only then was I content, when I devoured them all, to remain conceived with Me. I was God, and I was to operate as God – I had to take them all. My love would have given Me no peace, had I excluded any of them. Ah! My daughter, look well into the womb of My Mama; fix well your eyes on My conceived Humanity, and you will find your soul conceived with Me, and the flames of My Love that devour you. Oh! How much I loved you, and I do love you!”
I felt dissolved in the midst of so much love, nor was I able to go out of it; but a voice called me loudly, saying: “My daughter, this is nothing yet; cling more tightly to Me, and give your hands to My dear Mama, that She may hold you to her maternal womb. And you, take another look at My little conceived Humanity, and watch the fourth Excess of My Love.”
From the Calendar--December 17, 1914 Volume 11
Continuing in my usual state and being very afflicted because of the privations of Jesus, after much suffering He came, making Himself seen in all my poor being. It seemed to me as if I were the garment of Jesus. Then, breaking the silence, He told me: "My daughter, you too can form the hosts and consecrate them mystically. Do you see the garments that cover Me in the Sacrament? They are the accidents of the bread from which the Host is made. The Life which exists in this Host is My Body, My Blood and My Divinity. My Supreme Will is the act which contains this Life. This Will develops the Love, the reparation, the immolation and all the rest that I do in the Sacrament. The Sacrament never moves one point from My Volition. There is nothing that comes from Me which is not led by My Volition.
“Here is how you too can form the Host. The host is material and totally human; you too have a material body and a human will. This body and will of yours — as long as you keep them pure, upright and far away from any shadow of sin — are the accidents, the veil in order to consecrate Me and make Me live hidden in you. But this is not enough; it would be like the host without consecration - My Life is needed. My Life is composed of Sanctity, Love, Wisdom, Power, etc., but the engine of all is My Will. So, after you prepared the host, you have to make your will die in it; you must cook it well, so that it may not rise again. Then you have to let My Will permeate all your being; and My Will, which contains all My Life, will form the true and perfect consecration. Therefore, there will be no more life for human thought, but only for the thought of My Volition, which will consecrate My Wisdom inside your mind; no more life for what is human — weakness, inconstancy — because My Will will form the consecration of the Divine Life, of fortitude, of firmness, and of all that I am. So, each time you let your will flow into Mine, I will renew the consecration of your desires, and of all that you are and that you can do. I will continue My Life in you as if in a living Host — not a dead one, like the hosts without Me.
“But this is not all. In the consecrated Hosts, in the pyxes, in the Tabernacles, everything is dead — mute; not the sensitivity of a heartbeat, not a rush of love which may return My Great Love. If I didn’t wait for hearts in order to give Myself to them, I would be very unhappy; I would remain defrauded of My Love, and My Sacramental Life would remain without purpose. Though I tolerate this in the tabernacles, I would not tolerate it in living Hosts. In the Sacrament I want to be fed with My own food: the soul will take possession of My Will, My Love, My prayers, My reparations, My sacrifices; she will give them to Me as if they were her own things, and I will nourish Myself. The soul will unite with Me, pricking up her ears in order to hear what I am doing, and to do it together with Me; so, as she keeps repeating My own acts, she will give Me her food, and I will be happy. Only in these living Hosts will I find the compensation for My loneliness, My starvation and all that I suffer in the tabernacles."
Second Excess of Love -- Christmas Novena, December 17
SECOND EXCESS OF LOVE
Then, my mind brought itself into the maternal womb, and remained stupefied in considering a God so great in Heaven, now so annihilated, restricted, constrained, as to be unable to move, and almost even to breathe.
The interior voice told me: “Do you see how much I have loved you? O please, make Me a little space in your heart; remove everything which is not Mine, so you will give Me more freedom to move and to breathe.”
My heart was consumed; I asked for His forgiveness, I promised to be completely His own, I poured myself out in crying; but – I say this to my confusion – I would go back to my usual defects. Oh Jesus, how good You are with this miserable creature!
From the Calendar--December 16, 1928 Volume 25
I was doing my meditation, and since today it was the beginning of the Novena of Baby Jesus, I was thinking about the nine excesses of His Incarnation, that Jesus had narrated to me with so much tenderness, and that are written in the first volume. I felt great reluctance at reminding the confessor about this, because, in reading them, he had told me that he wanted to read them in public in our chapel.
Now, while I was thinking of this, my little Baby Jesus made Himself seen in my arms, so very little, caressing me with His tiny little hands, and saying to me: “How beautiful is My little daughter! How beautiful! How I must thank you for having listened to Me.”
And I: “My Love, what are You saying? It is I who must thank You for having spoken to me, and for having given me, with so much love, acting as my Teacher, so many lessons that I did not deserve.”
And Jesus: “Ah, My daughter, to how many do I want to speak, and they do not listen to Me, reducing Me to silence and to suffocating My flames. So, we must thank each other—you thank Me, and I thank you. And then, why do you want to oppose the reading of the Nine Excesses? Ah! You do not know how much life, how much love and grace they contain. You must know that My word is Creation, and in narrating to you the Nine Excesses of My Love in the Incarnation, I not only renewed My Love that I had in incarnating Myself, but I created New Love in order to invest the creatures and conquer them to give themselves to Me.
“These Nine Excesses of My Love, manifested with so much love of tenderness and simplicity, formed the prelude of the many lessons I was to give you about My Divine Fiat, in order to form Its Kingdom. And now, by their being read, My Love is renewed and redoubled. Don’t you want, then, that My Love, being redoubled, overflow outside and invest more hearts, so that, as a prelude, they may dispose themselves for the lessons of My Will, to make It known and reign?”
And I: “My dear Baby, I believe that many have spoken about Your Incarnation.”
And Jesus: “Yes, yes, they have spoken, but those have been words taken from the shore of the sea of My Love, therefore they are words that possess neither tendernesses, nor fullnesses of life. But those few words that I have spoken to you, I have spoken from within the life of the fount of My Love, and they contain life, irresistible strength, and such tendernesses, that only the dead will not feel themselves being moved to pity for Me, tiny little One, who suffered so many pains even from the womb of the Celestial Mama.”
After this, the confessor was reading in the chapel the first excess of the Love of Jesus in the Incarnation; and my sweet Jesus, from within my interior, pricked up His ears to listen. And drawing me to Himself, He said to me: “My daughter, how happy I feel in listening to them. But My Happiness increases in keeping you in this house of My Will, as both of us are listeners: I, of what I have told you, and you, of what you have heard from Me. My Love swells, boils and overflows. Listen, listen—how beautiful it is! The word contains the breath, and as it is spoken, the word carries the breath that, like air, goes around from mouth to mouth and communicates the strength of My Creative Word; and the new creation that My Word contains descends into the hearts.
“Listen, My daughter: in Redemption I had the cortege of My Apostles, and I was in their midst, all love, in order to instruct them; I spared no toil in order to form the foundation of My Church. Now, in this house, I feel the cortege of the first children of My Will, and I feel My loving scenes being repeated, in seeing you in their midst, all love, wanting to impart the lessons about My Divine Fiat in order to form the foundations of the Kingdom of My Divine Will. If you knew how happy I feel in seeing you speak about My Divine Volition.... I anxiously await the moment when you begin to speak, in order to listen to you, and to feel the happiness that My Divine Will brings Me.”
First Excess of Love -- Christmas Novena, December 16
“With a Novena of Holy Christmas, at the age of about seventeen, I prepared myself for the Feast of Holy Christmas, by practicing various acts of virtue and mortification; and, especially, by honoring the nine months which Jesus spent in the maternal womb with nine hours of meditation each day, always concerning the mystery of the Incarnation.”
FIRST EXCESS OF LOVE
As for example, for one hour, with my thought, I brought myself to Paradise, and I imagined the Most Holy Trinity: the Father, sending the Son upon earth; the Son, promptly obeying the Will of the Father; the Holy Spirit, consenting.
My mind was confused in contemplating a mystery so great, a Love so reciprocal, so equal, so strong among Themselves and toward men; and then, the ingratitude of men, and especially my own. I would have remained there, not for one hour, but for the whole day; but an interior voice told me: “Enough – come and see other greater Excesses of My Love.”
From the Calendar--December 15, 1926 Volume 20
I was continuing my round in the Creation, in order to follow the Supreme Will in all created things; but while I was doing this, I thought in my mind: “What good do I do, what glory do I give to this adorable Fiat, by going through all created things, as though in review, to place in them even just one little ‘I love You’ of mine? Who knows whether this might not be a waste of time that I do.”
Now, while I was thinking of this, my sweet Jesus moved in my interior and told me: “My daughter, what are you saying? With My Will one never wastes time; on the contrary, by following It, one gains the Eternal Time. Now, you must know that each created thing contains a delight, one distinct from the other; and these delights were placed by Us, and were to serve Us to delight Ourselves and the creature. Now, in each created thing runs Our Love, and as you go through them, you make the little note of your love run. Don’t you want, then, in the face of so much Love of Ours, to place your little notes, your dots, your commas, your little strings that say ‘love’ and, harmonizing with Our Love, form the delight wanted by Us for Ourselves and for you?
“Only when there is company, then is a delight enjoyed more; isolation makes the enjoyment die. So, the company you give Us by going around in the Creation makes Us remember of Our many delights that were placed by Us in each created thing; it makes Us live through Our enjoyments again; and while you delight Us, We delight you. And besides, perhaps you too want to leave Our Will isolated? No, no; it is befitting for the little daughter never to leave her Mother alone, and to remain always on Her knees to follow Her in all Her acts.”
From the Calendar--December 14, 1911 Volume 10
I continue my most bitter days, though resigned to the Will of God. My always lovable Jesus, if He makes Himself seen, is always afflicted and taciturn; it seems He no longer wants to pay attention to me in anything. This morning, making Himself seen, He put two earrings on my ears — so shining as to look like two suns. Then He told me: "My beloved daughter, for one who is all intent on listening to Me, My Word is sun, which not only delights the hearing, but nourishes the mind and satiates the heart with Me and with My Love. Ah! they don’t want to understand that all My intent is to have all of you intent within Me, without paying attention to anything else. Look at her (pointing at someone), with her way of scrutinizing everything – she pays attention to everything, she is affected by everything, up to the excesses — and even in holy things. This is nothing but a living outside of Me, and one who lives outside of Me, by necessity feels herself very much. She thinks she does honor to Me, but it is the opposite."
From the Calendar--December 13, 1928 Volume 25
I was fusing myself in the Holy Divine Volition, and as I accompanied Its acts done in the Creation, my sweet Jesus, moving in my interior, told me: “My daughter, all created things were created by Us with a dose of Happiness, one distinct from the other; so, each created thing brings to man the kiss, the air that delights, the life of Our Happiness. But do you know who feels all the effects of Our many Happinesses that are spread in the Creation descend into her interior, to the point of remaining soaked with them like a sponge? One who lives in Our Divine Will.
“Our Happinesses are not foreign to her, because, since she has her taste purified by Our Fiat and not corrupted by the human will, her taste and all of her senses have the virtue of enjoying all the Happinesses that are present in the created things, and We feel so much Happiness and Joy in seeing one who does Our Will as though sitting at the table of Our Happinesses and feeding herself with as many different bites for as many as are the Happinesses present in the created things. Oh! how beautiful it is to see the creature Happy.”
At that moment, Jesus kept silent, and I heard the sound of the harmonium playing in the chapel; and Jesus pricked up His ears to listen, and then He added: “Oh! how Happy I feel because this sound delights the little daughter of My Will. And I, in hearing it, delight together with her. Oh! how beautiful it is to be delighted together. To make one who loves Me happy is the greatest of My Happinesses.”
And I: “Jesus, my Love, my Happiness for me is You alone, all other things hold no attraction over me.”
And Jesus: “Certainly the greatest Happiness for you is I, because I contain the source of all joys and Happinesses; but I enjoy in giving you the small Happinesses, and just as I Myself feel them and enjoy them, I want you to feel them and enjoy them together with Me.”
From the Calendar--December 12, 1926 Volume 20
After this, my sweet Jesus showed me Himself placing my little soul inside a Sun, and with His holy hands He held me still within that light, which was such that, as it covered me completely, inside and out, I could not see, nor was I able to see anything but light.
And my adored Good added: “My daughter, in creating man, the Divinity placed him inside the Sun of the Divine Will, and all creatures in him. This Sun served as garment not only for his soul, but its rays were such as to cover also his body, in such a way as to serve as more than a garment for him, rendering him so adorned and beautiful that neither kings nor emperors have ever appeared so adorned as Adam appeared, with this garment of most refulgent Light.
“Those who say that, before sinning, Adam went naked are wrong. False, false. If all things created by Us are all adorned and clothed, he who was Our jewel, the purpose for which all things were created—was he not to have the most beautiful garment and the most beautiful ornament of all? So, to him befitted the beautiful garment of the Light of the Sun of Our Will; and since he possessed this garment of Light, he had no need of material garments in order to cover himself. As he withdrew from the Divine Fiat, so did light withdraw from his soul and from his body; he lost his beautiful garment, and in seeing himself no longer surrounded with Light, he felt naked. Feeling ashamed in seeing that he was the only one to be naked in the midst of all created things, he felt the need to cover himself, and he made use of superfluous things, created things, to cover his nakedness.
“This is so true, that after My highest sorrow of seeing My garments divided and My tunic gambled away, as My Humanity rose again I took no other garments, but I clothed Myself with the most refulgent garment of the Sun of My Supreme Will. That was the same garment as the one that Adam possessed when he was created, because in order to open Heaven, My Humanity was to wear the garment of the Light of the Sun of My Supreme Will—a royal garment; and as it gave Me the insignia of King and dominion into My hands, I opened Heaven to all the redeemed ones; and presenting Myself before My Celestial Father, I offered Him the garments of His Will, whole and beautiful, with which My Humanity was covered, so as to make Him recognize all the redeemed ones as Our children.
“So, while It is life, at the same time My Will is the true garment of the creation of the creature, and therefore It holds all rights over her. But how much do they not do to escape from within this Light? Therefore, be still in this Sun of the Eternal Fiat, and I will help you to maintain yourself in this Light.”
On hearing this, I said to Him: “My Jesus and My All, how is this? If Adam in the state of innocence had no need of garments because the Light of Your Will was more than garment, the Sovereign Queen, however, possessed Your Will as whole, and You Yourself were Your Will Itself; yet, neither the Celestial Mama nor Yourself wore the garments of Light, and both of You made use of material garments to cover Yourselves. How is this?”
And Jesus continued, saying: “My daughter, both My Mama and I came to set fraternal bonds with creatures; We came to raise decayed humanity, and therefore to take up the miseries and humiliations into which it had fallen, in order to expiate for them at the cost of Our lives. Had they seen Us clothed with Light, who would have dared to approach Us and to deal with Us? And in the course of My Passion, who would have dared to touch Me? The Light of the Sun of My Will would have blinded them and crushed them to the ground.
“Therefore, I had to make a greater miracle, hiding this Light within the veil of My Humanity, and appearing as one of them, because It represented, not Adam innocent, but Adam fallen, and so I was to subject Myself to all of his evils, taking them upon Myself as if they were My own, in order to expiate for them before Divine Justice. But when I rose again from death, representing Adam innocent, the new Adam, I ceased the miracle of keeping the garments of the refulgent Sun of My Will hidden within the veil of My Humanity, and I remained clothed with most pure Light; and with this royal and dazzling garment I made My entrance into My Fatherland, leaving the doors open that had remained closed up to that point, so as to let all of those who had followed Me enter.
“Therefore, by not doing Our Will, there is no good that one does not lose, and there is no evil that one does not acquire.”
From the Calendar--No entries were written on December 11--December 8, 1936 Volume 34
My poor mind, immersing itself in the Divine Fiat, found in act the Conception of the Immaculate Queen. He was all in feast and called everyone around Himself, Angels, Saints, in order to make seen the Unheard-of Prodigy, the Graces, the Love with which He called this Sublime Creature from nothing, such that everyone would know and praise Her as their Queen and Mother of all.
But while I remained surprised, and I would have remained there who knows how long if my sweet Jesus had not called me by telling me: “I want to Honor My Celestial Mother. I want to narrate the story of Her Immaculate Conception. Only I can speak of it, being Author of so Great a Prodigy. Now, My daughter, the First Act of this Conception was one Fiat of Ours, pronounced with such Solemnity and with such Fullness of Grace, as to enclose everything and everyone. We centralized everything in this Conception of the Virgin. In Our Divine Fiat, in which past and future do not exist, the Incarnation of the Word was held present, and It made Her Conceived and incarnated in the same Incarnation of Me, future Redeemer. My Blood that was in act as if I Myself were shedding it, continually sprinkled Her, embellished Her, Confirmed Her, and fortified Her in a Divine Way.
“But it was not enough for My Love. All Her Acts, Words, and Steps, were first Conceived in My Acts, Words, and Steps, and then they had Life. My Humanity was the refuge, the hiding place, the embodiment of this Celestial Creature, such that if She Loved Us, Her Love was Incarnated and Conceived in My Love. And O! how She Loved Us. Her Love enclosed everything and everyone. I can say that She Loved as a God knows how to Love. She had Our same follies of Love for Us and for all creatures, and that Loving one time, She Loves, She always Loves, without ever stopping. Her prayer was Conceived in My Prayer and therefore it had an Immense Value, a Power over Our Supreme Being—and who could deny Her anything? Her sufferings, Her Sorrows, Her Martyrdoms, that were so many, were first Conceived in My Humanity, and then She felt in Herself the Life of the sufferings and of the excruciating Martyrdoms, all animated by Divine Strength. Therefore one can say She was Conceived in Me. From Me Her Life went forth. Everything that I did and Suffered lined up around this Holy Creature in order to court Her and continuously pour Myself over Her, and be able to tell Her: ‘You are the Life of My Life, You are All Beautiful, You are the First Redeemed, My Divine Fiat has molded You, It has Breathed on You, and It has made You be Conceived in My Works, in My Humanity Itself.’
“Now, My daughter, Conceiving this Celestial Creature in the Incarnate Word, was done by Us with Highest Wisdom, with Unreachable Power, with Inexhaustible Love, and with Decorum that befits Our Works. I, Word of the Father, having to descend from Heaven in order to Incarnate Myself in the Womb of a Virgin, just virginity and having made Her exempt from the stain of original sin was not sufficient for the Sanctity of My Divinity, therefore it was necessary for Our Love and for Our Sanctity that this Virgin first would be Conceived in Me with all those Prerogatives, Virtues, and Beauties that the Life of the Incarnate Word must possess, and then, therefore, I could be Conceived in the One who had been Conceived in Me.
“And I found in Her My Heaven, the Sanctity of My Life, My own Blood that had Generated Her and watered Her so many times. I found My own Will, that communicating Its Divine Fecundity to Her, formed the Life of Her and the Son of God. My Divine Fiat, in order to make Her Worthy of being able to Conceive Me, held Her Invested and under Its continuous Empire that possesses all acts as if they were One Single Act. In order to give Her everything, It called into act My foreseen Merits, My Whole Life, and It continuously poured it within Her Beautiful Soul.
“Therefore I alone can tell the true story of the Immaculate Conception and of Her whole Life, because I Conceived Her in Me and I am aware of everything. And if the Holy Church speaks about the Celestial Queen, they can say only the first letters of the alphabet about Her Sanctity, Greatness, and Gifts with which She was enriched. If you knew the Contentment that I feel when I speak about My Celestial Mother, who knows how many demands you would make Me in order to give Me the Joy of letting Me speak about the One whom I Love so much, and who has Loved Me.”
From the Calendar--December 10, 1915 Volume 11
… I was shaking in seeing and hearing Jesus so severe. In order to calm me down He changed His look and, all kindness, added: "My daughter, courage. I will not leave you; I am inside of you, although you do not always see Me. And you — unite yourself always with Me. If you pray, may your prayer flow in Mine — make it your own. In this way, you too will do all that I did with My prayers - the glory I gave to the Father, the good I pleaded for all — you will do it as well. If you work, make your work flow into Mine, and make it your own. So you will have in your power all the good that My Humanity did, which sanctified and Divinized everything. And if you suffer, may your suffering flow in Mine — make it your own; so you will have in your power all the good that I did in Redemption. With this, you will take the three essential points of My Life; and as you do so, immense seas of graces will come out from you, and pour out for the good of all. And I will look at your life, not as your own, but as Mine."