Divine Will for every day of the year - December 24, 1924 Volume 17

… Now, while I was in this state, I felt I was outside of myself, within a most pure light; and in this light I could see the Queen Mama and the Little Baby Jesus inside Her virginal womb. O God! In what a sorrowful state was my adorable Little Baby! His little Humanity was immobilized; His little feet and hands were immobile, without the slightest movement. There was no space, either to open His eyes, or to breathe freely. His immobility was such that He seemed to be dead, while He was alive. I was thinking to myself: “Who knows how much my Jesus suffers in this state! And how much His beloved Mama suffers, in seeing Baby Jesus so immobilized within Her own womb!”

Now, while I was thinking of this, my Little Baby, sobbing, said to me: “My daughter, the pains I suffered in this virginal womb of My Mama are incalculable to the human mind. But do you know what was the first pain which I suffered in the first act of My Conception, and which lasted for all of My life? The pain of death. My Divinity descended from Heaven as fully happy, intangible by any pain and by any death. When I saw My little Humanity being subject to pain and to death for Love of creatures, I felt the pain of death so vividly, that I really would have died of pure pain, if the power of My Divinity had not sustained Me with a prodigy, making Me feel the pain of death and the continuation of life. So, for Me it was always death: I felt the death of sin, the death of good within the creatures, and also their natural death. What a cruel torment this was for Me, for all of My Life! I, who contained Life and who was the absolute lord of Life itself, had to subject Myself to the pain of death. Don’t you see My little Humanity immobile and dying in the womb of My dear Mama? And don’t you yourself feel how hard and excruciating is the pain of feeling like dying, without dying? My daughter, it is your living in My Will that makes you share in the continuous death on My Humanity.”

So, I spent almost the whole morning close to my Jesus, inside the womb of my Mama, and I saw that, as He was in the act of dying, He regained life, to abandon Himself to death again. What pain, to see Baby Jesus in that state! …